Lost Legacy

Speaking with Khado RinpocheElizabeth Bayard

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"I heard voices. It was just like reading a good book, or listening to a great story. I couldn't pull myself away. I listened day and night. I don't remember what they said. Whenever I woke up I could not remember anything. Maybe this was the beginning of going crazy."

"Could they have been voices from your Buddhist past?"

"I don't know. I don't believe they were Buddhist deities. Now I think that it was the beginning of madness.

"Sometimes I wanted to die. I wanted to die fast before the Chinese could kill me. I would take out the light bulb and stick my fingers inside the socket, but I wouldn't get a shock since I would be standing on the wooden box that I used for a latrine. I jumped down from off this box many times—head first—trying to kill myself. I hit my head against the stone corner, but I never even got hurt.

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